Have you ever been manic?

Have you ever been manic?

Myra

Trigger Warnings: Medication misuse, Medical, Cops

12Feb22

Just feel energy flow through you faster and faster and never have a stop heart racing faster and faster the beat in your brain accelerating never stop keep going follow me on this journey running and running until our shoes fall apart throw in some caffeine and methylphenidate makes the trip last longer running on the rails and dodging the trains coming by make bad decision after bad decision try and keep the cops at bay lets go home and get some work done fuel yourselves with your stimulant of choice it’s the only way to keep up here it’s the only way to get good grades for us it just makes us function but others abuse it making it hard for neurodivergent folks to get it making it look like were addicts we don’t want to be in this pharmacy either pal we don’t need your interrogation its already prescribed I know it’s a day early but it doesn’t make a difference don’t you dare make us take a drug test doctor its dehumanizing we’re taking our meds like you want realize your off track running in circles does this make your work better or erratic does this state give euphoria or panic it doesn’t stop keep running and keep running again if you slow down you’re dead even if you’re having a seizure you can’t stop or you’ll fall behind keep running you don’t have time to socialize keep running you don’t have time to do what you need to for survival keep running health doesn’t matter keep running never looking for a break because you know the second you stop typing you collapse and you’ll be stuck alone keep everything counting as work or you’re dead accessibility is a joke sometimes we need to slow down but we got a thousand emails if we do we spend our time trying to recover replying to default messages of concern and we never get that break we have to spend it reassuring others about our health our wellbeing we have to comfort others when we try to comfort ourselves just leave us alone please we can’t work like this give us a break we’re going through massive changes and our conditions are worsening I don’t need you to add to it just leave me alone but I have to respond or they’ll call cops to my door a simple wellness check the same cops that stop us dead in our tracks and interrogate us the same cops that kill mentally ill people for fun we’re not interested in your services so we can never stop we have to keep running and keep running and keep running until we collapse.